The remnants of the past now fade
To render your own heart unmade
For every vow, you’re now a liar
And every element conspires
To ensure that it’s too late
And you are subject to your fate
To live a life of broken dreams
Possessing only what’s obscene
Craving what you used to know
You can never let her go
Flowers blossom in the dark
And beckon to the light
Their shadowed past, now overcome
And let my dreams take flight
My true ambition, once held dear
And with passion did set sail
Stormy seas and treachery
All was doomed to fail
A voyage further, a vulgar leap
Attempt to leave the ground
Yet once more, my cry for freedom
Is met with not a sound
So what new land lies ahead
On this most ignoble quest
What paradise to conquer
Somehow better than the rest
A far off vision, new to my eyes
Yet hope has revealed itself
So now to brave the sea once more
Or sit upon this shelf
Paradise is not, it seems
A million miles away
But always just outside my grasp
And that’s where it must stay
Free to follow my own path
Free to go where I please
Free to think my own thoughts
Now I stand up from my knees
Not tied down to one familiar place
Not restricted in desires
Not held back for fear of turmoil
Now I’m free from binding fires
I can walk with head held high
I can say I am my own
I can craft my soul anew
Now that I am all alone
No longer I, a single fragment
No longer half of something great
No longer quietly contented
Now that I have learned my fate
For now my bond has been broken
For now my fire has been put out
For now my purpose has been taken
Now I am forced to live without
All that gave me pleasure, gone
All that I ever wanted
All the memories remain
To render me forever haunted
Even now that I have changed
People still see me the same
Dressed in black with too long hair
The hardly even know my name
Every day I wear a smile
That just wont disappear
Even though I know inside
No one holds me dear
Old perceptions stick, it seems
Atleast they do to me
Most arent even willing
To really try to see
I’m not who I was
Something’s changed inside
All my darkness and despair
Have now been cast aside
So how am I to let them know
That who I was is dead?
Change my every fibre
Look like them instead?
So I’ll shed my dark apparell
Dress in pastel colours
I’ll shave my head and then I’ll be
Just like all the others
Cos in the end each of us knows
Thats what really matters
Change whats on the outside
And climb up social ladders
What a choice we have to make
To live life as a freak
Or to admit we’re dead inside
Attention starved and weak
Barren, bare and lifeless
Exempt from joyful days
Once so peaceful and vibrant
But memories have slipped away
All that was needed to warm the heart
Now lies a million miles from me
Bringing life to a new realm
That my eyes shall never see
Now all that remains is emptiness
Where true love used to stay
But now my purpose, gone again
And in it’s place, decay
I don’t believe I’ll find again
All that I have lost
Happiness like that is rare
Your soul, it’s only cost
Window painted frosty white
Grass with icy dew
Robin shivers in the trees
Footprints leave a clue
A clue that leads
To where they’ve gone
Those early worm-snatchers
Of the frozen dawn
Up the garden path
And lost among the trees
Now the culprit’s tracks
Obscured by the breeze
But still he shivers between the branches
He waits
For another scrap of food
That may come just too late
But still he fights against the cold
The wind and the rain
He will see another spring
Free from all this pain
In the distance
He sees something squirm
A payload received
A big fat juicy worm
Back to the nest
There’s Mouths to feed
His chicks are grateful
This is one worm they need
Father bird looks on contented
At the vigour with which they ate it
Winter’s nearly over now
They’re strong, they will make it
Pick them up from off the floor
All the pieces of our past
All the love stripped from our core
We used to think that it could last
So where is there to go
When this solace hits us hard
When we reach an all new low
And gather every broken shard
Not to put them back together
We both know its too late
But to bury them forever
With our love, that’s turned to hate
Darwin’s law, we know is true
Now nature has no place for you
Once so strong but now unreal
We enlightened, you concealed
Nature red in tooth and claw
Farewell to all our childish awe
For in this world we cant atone
and we must live our lives alone
In darkest dusk, the world in slumber
I still lie awake
Think of her and in my veins
My blood begins to shake
I look outside my empty chamber
To a world that now stands still
Look to the skies, the stars concealed
The earth has fallen ill
I dream a sight we used to know
The carpet of the gods
Our once clean air polluted by
Our metal lightning rods
Is it right that we’ve done this
Made this world our own
Filled it up with man-made structures
Destroyed our natural home
Through the night, a sound creeps forth
A distant engine’s roar
This is yet another sign
We’ve lost our humble core
We have always been so blind
To shape the world to our own pace
Maybe one day, when it’s too late
Mankind will know it’s place
I hear my name flow through the air
Her voice is calling, so softly, gently
My eyes now open, the light is divine
Her eyes are fixed intently
Her lips are pursed, conceal a smile
Her touch is golden warm
Familiar sight, heaven’s beauty
Embodied within her form
Her lips give way, an angel’s smile
Her eyes an icy blue
The light now plays across her skin
I know this love is true
She leans towards me, in a whisper
‘Good morning, my love’
I hold her close, blissful embrace
Happiness I once dreamed of
I watch her eyes, they’re closing slowly
Anticipation builds within us
Every moment is one we cherish
Nothing could ever stand between us
Our lips now meet, our eyes are closed
Our senses now awakened
Sweet sensation, heaven’s bliss
As our souls begin to blend
This is heaven, in both our hearts
This is all that we desire
To live forever, with each other
Embraced in true love’s fire
Never worried, never scared
This is not the land of the living
Only you and me forever
I know that this is heaven
Ian Stewart Black 